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You get used to things going wrong instead of right
Working long hours and the money staying tight
Life seems harsh and hardly ever kind
Those bruised clouds hanging low are never silver-lined
When we found each other, thought we’d break all those rules
Our love was like a butterfly, a glittering jewel
When we found each other, I started to exist
Now it looks as if you’re feeling your way out of this
Pride and motivation – I’ve forgotten what they mean
It’s tough getting out of bed when times are so lean
Suddenly you’re older and hope drags out the door
And showing someone that you care becomes another chore
When we found each other, we were dazed with pleasure
Our love was an island piled high with pirate treasure
When we found each other, we sailed a star-field of bliss
Now it looks as if you’re feeling your way out of this
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Altar (feat Zutsuri)
02:48
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A sacrifice seduced
For the altar of
Your vanity
A jealous, hungry god
Craving praises
Of profanity
With bedroom
Darkened eyen
And a deep mouth
Stained with wine
It drinks
Its fill
It was your mothers
Not your brothers
That agreed
To feed you
Poison
This egregious
Lack of choice in
Deeds deemed fit
To join your voice in
With lies disguised as prizes
Of reason and wisdom
With briberies of finery
To weaken any criticism
Can the fly invade
The blossom that
Devours it?
A mouth that lies in wait
For a gift of life
To shower it
Or is it
So entranced
That’s it drawn into
A dance
It can’t
Ever hope to understand
You’re roaming
Fueled on loathing
Roving
A wolf in sheep’s clothing
Hunger growing
Fluids flowing
Knowing nothing
But upholding
The law
That concedes
Your need to feed
To see them bleed
To steal their seed
To be your greed
Your ego’s freed
Took a shine to the wine
To confine your mind
Trying to climb down your spine
With a plea to breed
Bend them
(The questions you’ve been asking
Point to fears you have been masking)
Rend them
(Your movements and motions
Are revealing strong emotions)
Bend them
(Your posturing and posing
Cannot hide what you’re exposing)
Rend them
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I haven’t heard a word from you in such a long, long while.
Our differences as always are impossible to reconcile.
I tried to call you on the phone.
I’d hoped to speak with you alone.
I left a message once or twice for what that’s worth.
It seems you’ve fallen…
Perhaps you’ve fallen…
It’s like you’ve fallen off the face of the earth.
That time you left I thought we’d see each other now and then.
I’d find you some familiar place and ask, “Do you remember when?”
It hasn’t worked out quite that way
though I’ve been searching every day.
There’s been no trace of you at all for what it’s worth.
Perhaps you’ve fallen…
It’s like you’ve fallen…
It seems you’ve fallen off the face of the earth.
I’ve never wanted anchors or routines that tie me down.
I want to pull up stakes each time somebody speaks my name in town.
But I’ve run far as I can go.
There’s no one else I really know.
You’re all I’ve ever really loved for what that’s worth.
And now I’m fallin’…
Each day I’m fallin’…
I feel I’m fallin’ off the face of the earth.
I haven’t heard a word from you in such a long, long while.
I’ll leave this one last message in the hope that it might make you smile.
But since you won’t return the call
I’ll take the phone down off the wall
and let this number be released for what it’s worth…
and I’ll have fallen…
just like you’ve fallen…
I will have fallen off the face of the earth.
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I am trying not to break
I am trying not to break
Flooded by endless waves
With only one escape
That I am trying not to take
Oh keep trying
Oh keep trying
I am trying not to break
I am trying not to break
My heart tugged towards the moon
This tidal force of doom
I am trying to live through
Oh keep trying
Oh keep trying
I am trying not to break
I am trying not to break
Magnetic energy
Flaring inside me
I am trying to release
Oh keep trying
Oh keep trying
(Ooo…)
I am trying not to break
I am trying not to break
Flooded by endless waves
With only one escape
That I am trying not to take
Oh keep trying
Oh keep trying
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I’m afraid, you’re afraid
We’re all afraid
Why shouldn’t we be afraid
People are dyin’, the world is cryin’
Why wouldn’t we be afraid
Turn and face the end
Turn and face the end
Bullets and a hand grenade
Supremacy, a castle made of fear and hate
Why wouldn’t we be
Dark and depressed or feel sick in the head
Sooner or later we’ll all be dead
So turn and face the end
Turn and face the end
‘Cuz it’s over, yea it’s over
This is hauntingly frightening
I’m truly afraid
Turn and face the end
Face the end
We are the criminals guilty of murder
Our sins are original, defying the cosmic order
Well nature is patient and kind
But our karma of eye for an eye
Is leaving us blind
So we all deserve to die
Turn and face the end
Turn and face the end
‘Cuz it’s over, yea it’s over
It’s gonna get worse so prepare
For death and destruction
Mass extermination
And our final extinction
You should be afraid, but don’t be afraid
Turn and face the end
Turn and face the end
This is the ending, this is the end
(So turn and face it)
This is the ending, this is the end
(So turn and face it)
The end
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I see the moon reflected
In my glass of garnet wine
Seems its face is full of sorrow
As sorrowful as mine
It’s time for me to break all ties
Make sail for that line
Where the sea kisses the sky
Now my glass has broken
Like my fractured heart and mind
I’ve a ticket marked for nowhere
And I’ll take it as a sign
To break away, make no last try
My fate lies on that line
Where the sea kisses the sky
My ticket’s marked for nowhere
I’ll take it as a sign
To sail away, sail for that silver line
Where the sea kisses the sky
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You and I (feat Zutsuri)
04:13
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There might be a chance
That I’m falling for you
There’s not a lot
I wouldn’t do for you
There may come a time
When you won’t find
Me as lovely
But between now and then
Maybe you could find it in
Your heart to love me
Colors bled into themselves
And the world grew so much smaller
Then suddenly
It was only you and I
There might be a chance
You don’t feel the same way
There are a lot
Of soothing words we could say
Maybe in another time
Circumstance will find
Us together
But even if not then
The memory is in
Our hearts forever
Colors bled into themselves
And the world grew so much smaller
Then suddenly
It was only you and I
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Je ne la reverrais plus
Mathilde est partit.
Son jardin restera vide.
Elle ne me dira plus …Bonjour
La chatelaine ne rentrerar plus
Le poele de faience restera glacé.
Oh Mathilde
je pleure dans la chapelle,
Je prie pour ton retour
Mathilde…
Reviens chez toi
Tombé dans l’abîme,
noyé au fond du puit
Je revois le visage de ma princesse
Où est tu ?
Que fais tu ?
Reviendras tu un jour?
Peut être, je l’espère
Nous avons des choses à faire
Des choses à vivre
Demain , l’horizon sera le tient, sera le nôtre.
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We’re walking arm in arm across this land,
matching Freedom’s cadence stride for stride.
To sweep aside corruption’s evil hand
we’re walking arm in arm across this land.
For fifty years uneasy peace did stand,
bought by tears both sons and daughters cried.
We’re walking arm in arm across this land,
matching Freedom’s cadence stride for stride…
We don’t accept exception proves the rule
that some are born to serve while others rise
or that the eye of Providence is cruel.
We don’t accept exception proves the rule.
And he who holds that color makes a fool
should let his own religion catechize.
We don’t accept exception proves the rule:
that some are born to serve while others rise.
From west to east, then east to west we’ll trawl
driving spite and hatred to the sea.
Into the deep we’ll watch it writhe and fall.
From west to east, then east to west we’ll trawl.
When morning sunlight finds the things that crawl
out of the shadows of hypocrisy,
from west to east, then east to west we’ll trawl,
driving spite and hatred to the sea.
We’re marching arm in arm across this land,
Freedom’s voices shouting side by side.
Guarding truth with every heart and hand
we’re marching arm in arm across this land.
Where millions died more millions fight to stand.
not to oppose us but to share our pride:
“We’re marching arm in arm across this land!”
Freedom’s voices shouting side by side.
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It’s suddenly silent
I was expecting this
Pointed rivet of madness
Pinning me here
When did I start to forget?
The shade of your eyes
And the words that you said
This can’t be happening
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
My lips are aching
And waiting for and your truth to return
I’m losing the memory of your face
And the sound of your voice that once burned
In me like the story
Of abandoned Garden
For earthly priority
This can’t be happening
Can’t sleep or let go
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll stand in the rain
I will pray I will stay
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
All my days
All my days
All my days
Maybe all we need is time
Maybe you will change your mind
Maybe you will seek and find
The me reflecting in you
Lover lift the curtain
Enter my temple, my inner sanctum
Is this happening
We’re here all alone
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll stand in the rain
I will pray I will stay
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll take all the blame
Wear your letter of shame
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
All my days
All my days
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
I’ll wait here for you
All my days
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll wait here for you
I’ll wait here for you
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He lives in the moment
When he’s happy, his face lights up
His eyes glow
When he’s concerned, overwhelmed, distraught
His entire being is devastated
He lives in the moment
One moment
Now
If it happened 2 minutes ago
It didn’t happen at all
There is no future
But there is a past
He can time-travel to a foggy memory
Pride fills in missing pieces
But it’s real to him
It’s the truth
And maybe it really is the truth
And what we thought we knew never was
And now we’ll never know
He lives in the moment
Distracted by strangers, he gawks
Captivated, lost in thought
I try to bring him back
Often resorting to waving my hand in his face
Repeating “Dad? Dad? Dad?” over and over
Even then, it’s hard to redirect him
He’s stuck with curiosity
He’s lost in the moment
He lives in the moment
Music transports him to the past
Whisking him away
He sings along
He makes up his own songs
He has a boom box and CDS of the Beatles, Simon and Garfunkel, and Joni Mitchell
And classical recordings of Beethoven, Mozart, and Bach
He comes alive when he hears these sounds
But he doesn’t remember to push play
He lives in the moment
Repeating questions
Repeating stories
Each evening feels like the movie ‘Groundhog Day’
Never-ending lessons of patience
But often
He repeats the sweetest things possible
Love, admiration, gratitude
And I feel like the luckiest daughter
With the kindest father
He lives in the moment
Sometimes he’s aware, lucid
He’ll talk about his memory
He’ll say he doesn’t remember anything
But he’ll never forget me
I want believe it’s true
I cry, he cries
Sometimes it’s a question he asks
“Do you think my memory is going bad?”
I say “yes.”
Silence.
Sometime he’ll say that not remembering isn’t so bad
He’s happy
I want to believe it
And maybe he really is
Because he lives in the moment.
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wake up, look at the ceiling
think of sleeping, get up while you can
sit down, look at the monitor
think of the decline of patience
get up, look at the bed
head too heavy to think
lie down, look at the ceiling
think of nothing, sleep
and it goes around
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There’s a tall man on the shore
There’s a shallow wind
A few tracks in the damp sand
They’re easy — lighter than a child
Step by step, stone by stone
Are you searching for ancient treasure
A singing seagull on a cliff
A song without reason
Never ever have you found
No one knows what you are searching for
Are you searching for the hours falsely deducted from the account of your life
The quiet, a gentle wind
Your search seems so vain
Your days are so loud
One day, the wind and the empty beach
A seagull sails high above your head
On the last day you found in the sand the sense of it all
It’s been the quiet hours
Never ever have you found
No one knows what you are searching for
Are you searching for the hours falsely deducted from the account of your life
The quiet, a gentle wind
Your search seems so vain
Your days are so loud
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A moment of clarity
Triggered out of nowhere
By the unexpected
A fragrance
A strangers laugh
The crisp morning air
The colors of the sky
When this moment strikes
Life pauses
And memories rush in
Overpowering space and time
Like a spiral of time travel
Focusing on a single fold
A single thread
A single connection
And for a moment
One moment
Everything is real.
Fear. Sadness. Comfort.
Everything is clear.
Until it dissipates.
Back.
To now.
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